I figured it was time to make my return to blogging after Beth’s birth. I can hardly believe she’ll be a month old tomorrow. When folks say time flies and they grow up fast, they aren’t kidding. I thought my days went by fast when I was working. Boy, they go by even quicker now. It’s almost terrifying!
In fact, today I gave Beth a bottle for the first time. I have to say before heading into having a baby, I never really considered breastfeeding. My mom had fed me formula and I really didn’t know too many people who breastfed. However, after looking at the options further, I decided to give it a try because it seemed to be the best source of nutrients for my baby. I’m really glad I did. It’s amazing how close it brings you to your little one. In fact, you don’t even realize it until you have to take it away from them. Like tonight for example. We had tried to give Beth a bottle a week ago but she just wouldn’t have it. Since I have to go to a preschool function (to learn about options in the area) tomorrow evening, my husband will have to feed her so there's no putting this off any longer. My husband was supposed to give her the bottle as we’ve read that babies don’t like taking bottles from the mommy initially because they want the breast not the bottle, but he was running late so it was up to me.
Poor baby, she took the bottle, but seemed almost traumatized. “Why is mommy forcing this plastic thing in my mouth when she can feed me herself?” I could just see the questions in her eyes. She seemed to cope though and we made it through. I don’t know why little things like that this really tug at my heart, but they do. I just wanted to put the bottle away and feed her, comfort her, but I knew this was for her own good.
Now, I truly understand what my parents meant when they said, “just you wait until you have children.” It’s an incredible, indescribable, never ending love that I’m so blessed to experience.